SOMETIME BACK IN APRIL/2011 I GOT THREE BIRTHDAY CARDS FOR MELLY MAC..MY GRANDSON...HE WAS TURNING TWO....SO I MAILED THEM TO THE FOSTERCARE ATE THE WINTERHAVEN OFFICE.... WHEN CKING TO SEE IF THEY SEND THE CARDS TO HIM...THE LEAD CASE MGR...JUST HAPPEN TO BE ON VACATION....SO I CALLED AROUND THE LAST WK OF JUNE...TO THE CASE MGR....YES HE GOT THEM AND BY THE WAY...JASMINE HAS THE KIDS....WELL JULY 4TH HAPPEN...THAT WKEND BEFORE THE CELL WAS SCREWING UP...AND I HAD TO GO TO SPRINT AND GET IT CKED OUT....AND THE VOLUME WAS TURNED OFF....SO...THE GIRLS LEFTED ME A VOICEMAIL....I HAD TO HEAR IT A FEW TIMES...IT WAS WEIRD...I COULDNT MAKE OUT THE VOICES TIL I CALLED THE NUMBER AND IT WENT TO VM...AT LIGHTHOUSE MINISTIRES.....
A WEEK LATER....I GET A PHONE CALL FROM JAZ....SHE GOT MY NUMBER FROM THE LEAD CASE MGR,....I LISTEN...WAS POSITIVE WITH HER....AND SHE LET ME TALKED TO THE GIRLS...AND MAILMAN....I GOT OFF WORK AT 6PM THAT DAY...I TOTALLY KEPT IT TOGETHER...TIL I GOT IN THE CAR...AND WAS A NERVOUS WRECK...AND MY STOMACH WAS CHURNING....I CALLED MY BBF BERYL...AND GOT THRU THE ORDEAL...SO I PROGRAM THE PHONE....SO I KNOW WHEN SHE CALLS...AND I CAN OPT OUT IF I DONT WANT TO TALK....SO...ANYWAYS...SHE CALLED TWO DAYS LATER...AND ASKED ME IF I COULD TAKE THE GIRLS THAT WKEND...AND I SAID I WAS GOING TO DAYTONA BEACH AND I SLIPPED AND SAID I JUST TAKE THE GIRLS WITH ME....
SO I HAD A GOOD TIME WITH THE GRANDDAUGHTERS...AND GUNNY AND T...AND MY BBF PAT.........WHEN I WAS GETTING READY TO DROPPED OFF THE GIRLS...I GOT TO SEE MELLY MAC...THE MAILMAN....HE LOOKED SO SHARP AND CUTE AND A GROWN LITTLE MAN....AND HE GAVE ME KISSES AND SMACK HIS MOUTH WITH THE SOUND EACH TIME HE GAVE ME A KISS....WHEN SAYING GOODBYE...THE GIRLS DIDNT WANT ME TO GO...AND KEKE WANTED TO COME HOME WITH ME....ITS OK....
I TOLD JAZ TWO THINGS...ONE YOU ANIT LIVING WITH ME EVER....AND DO NOT DISREPECST ME OR CUSS AT ME...AS I WILL TRY TO DO THE SAME WITH HER....BUT I WILL BE CAUTIOUS WITH HER....AND SET BOUNDRIES...WITH HER....I CANT FALL BACK INTO HER WITH HER CRAP...I DONT HAVE THE TIME...PATIENCE OR STRENGTH TO GO ON WITH HER...I HAVE OTHER THINGS TO DO...LIKE......STAND BEHIND GUNTHER...IS AUGUST 22ND HERE YET....FOR SCHOOL...LOL.........AND TAKE CARE OF WILLIE....
STILL DIETING....I VE SLIPPED A FEW TIMES....IF I THINK ABOUT IT...AT LEAST 7DAYS...OUT OF 2MONTHS...SO THATS NOT BAD AT ALL....THE TRAZADONE FOR MY SLEEP WASNT WORKING THERE FOR A MINUTE....TAKING THE TRAZADONE WITH 3 LITTLE CUPS OF NYQUEL...AND IM SLEEPING REALLY SLEEPING...SO I WELL BETTER AND RESTED...HATE DO THAT...BUT I GOTS TO DO WHAT I GOTS TO DO.....NOW.......
BLUEEYES....IM IN LOVE WITH HIM...ALWASY HAVE BEEN...SO MAMA HERE IS HAVING A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP ON THE PHONE WITH BLUEEYES...HE WAS THE ONE MAN OUT OF 6(BOYFRIENDS) BESIDES WILLIE...THAT DIDNT TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME....I TOLD HIM THAT THE OTHER DAY....PLUS I HELPING HIM OUT FOR A MINUTE...I WOULD TELL U WHAT IT IS...BUT THIS IS BETWEEN BLUEEYES AND ME....BEING A FRIEND....I JUST WROTE HIM TWO LETTERS AND SEND HIM SOME STAMPS...SEE WHERE THIS TAKES ME....OR US......I CAN WAIT.....BUT HE MAKES ME SMILE WHEN WE SAY BYE ON THE PHONE...AND HE SAYS HE LOVES ME...THAT WILL DO...FOR NOW....I DO LOVE WILLIE...AND I TAKE CARE OF HIM.. AND HES MY HUBBY....BUT WE OPENED MINDED HERE..WILLIE LETS ME DO WHAT I WANT...WITHIN REASON...BUT IT DOESNT HURT TO HAVE A FRIEND....EVEN IF ITS A MAN...OR A OLD BOYFREIND...THAT I JUST HAPPEN TO LOVE...WAY BACK IN THE LATE 70'S.....AND WE SAW EACH OTHER IN 1988 AND THE NEXT TIME I SAW HIM WAS 2010...NOW I WANT TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH HIM......IM PROFESSING MY LOVE FOR HIM...
WELL IM OUT...SWEETS SIGNING OFF
