REALLY

SO YESTERDAY....GUNNY FLIPS OUT..AT CHURCH...CUSSING..THROWING CHAIRS...DISRESPECTING THE STAFF.....I LED ON LAST NIGHT WHEN I PICK HIM UP FROM TUTORING. THAT I DIDNT KNOW WHAT HE HAD DONE AT CHURCH....AND IM TRYING TO LISTEN...TALKED TO REBEKAH....AND TOLD HER TO SUSPEND HIM...FOR WEDNESDAY(AFTER SCHOOL PROGRAM).....AND SHE WILL PUT HIM...TO WORK....THURSDAY....

SO I TELL MY SON TO TAKE THE BUS HOME... TOLD HIM WE WILL WALK TO CHURCH TO SEE KEVIN FOR HIS APPOINTMENT AND I TOLD GUNNY TO WALK HOME AFTER THAT.....HE ASKS ME WHY DID I LIED TO HIM.....AND HE RAISES HIS VOICE AT ME....GOD DAMN...I TOLD HIM U ARE IN MY FUCKING HOUSE ...U DO NOT TALKED TO ME LIKE...

JUST A SECOND AGO...I START CRYING....AND I COULD HER JAZ AND NESTO....DISRESPECTING ME...OR RAISES THERE VOICES TO ME...AND HERE GUNNY DID THAT TO DAY..AND I JUST LOST IT........I REALLY DONT LIKE BEING A PARENT ANYMORE.....SO SO...TIRED...............................DAMN IT ...LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE

SOMETIMES...BLOGGER ANIT WORKING...

I HAVE NOTICED...THAT I TRIED TO PUT PICS UP AS I BLOGGED...MY LIFE...AND ALL OF A SUDDEN....NOTHING...NOW ITS WORKING...OK...SO MANY MONTHS WITH OUT WRITING ON MY BLOGGS....I NEED TO CATCH UP...PER SAY....IVE STARTED MY 7/8 YR...ON MY BLOGGS....IF I AINT BITCHIN ON MINE...OR WRITING LOVE LETTERS TO MY GRANDBABIES...OR SAYING THIS ABOUT MY GUNNY...OR EVEN THAT JUGHEAD ERNESTO...I JUST GOT TO GET GOING ON THIS......

ABOUT A MONTH AGO....ON MY GRANDBABY PASSION SHE JUST TURNED 9...BUT MY ROAD DOGG PAT.....I WENT TO DOLLAR TREE AND GOT SOME BALLONS TO REALESE FOR HER BIRHDAY.....MISS U PAT..REALLY DO....AND I AM AWARE THAT U ARE AROUND BE...IF ANIT LAUGHING AT ME.....OR TRYING TO KICK MY ASS.......I HOPE THIS VIDEO LOADS......MY JUGHEAD ERNESTO IS SITTING I POLK COUNTY...DRAGGING HIS COURT PROCEDDINGS AS LONG AS HE CAN....HE ONLY VIOLATED HIS PROBATION...HE WAS IN SOUTH BEACH AND MOVING TO MIAMI....WELL THEY SENT HIM BACK TO POLK COUNTY.....SO....26..NOT MY PROBLEM....HAVE NO MORE MONIES TO LET HIM CALL HOME.......ANYWHO........MY GRANDBABIES....ARE DOING GOOD IN SCHOOL....MELLY...I ASKED HIM YESTERDAY....NO U LISTEN TO THE RULES.....HE SAYS...NO....THATS MY BOY.....BUT ..MECCA...FOLLOW THE RULES...BECAUSE GRANNY SAID SO....U DIGG.......I GOT TO CATCH UP ON MY BABY GUNNY BUTT.....NEXT BLOGG.....LET ME RUN FOR A MINUTE...GOT TO PICK HIM UP AT THE SPCA.....

GUNNY WENT ON A MINI MISSION TRIP

THIS WEEKEND...IT WAS CALLED IMPRINT...WHERE THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT THE POOR..THE HOMELESS AND HAD PRAISE TIME....AND FUN...AND LEARNED ABOUT WHAT WE ALL NEED TO DO TO HELP OTHER WITHOUT.....HE WAS SO EXICTED TO TELL ME...HE COULDNT STOP TALKING...HE AMAZES ME...THAT HE IS GETTING HIS IMPRINT OF LIFE....AND UNDERSTANDING ABOUT HIS LIFE...SO COOL....I LOVE MY BABY BOY...THE APPLE OF MY EYES....GUNNY U CAN BE ANYTHING U WANT IN THIS LIFE...GO GET IT...BABY...LOVE MOMMY