ME.........MY LIFE ....

FROM THIS MAN...MY HUBBY...WILL WILL.....

WELL...I SIT HERE...THINKING...WHAT I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED IN MY LIFE...ONE...IS..MY GUNTHER....MY BEAUTIFUL LOVE CHILD.....

I LEFT HOME AT 19/20....I HAD ENOUGH OF THE DYSFUNCTIONAL DALLNER FAMILY...AND I MOVED TO SUNNY LAKELAND FL....I TOOK THAT STEP...TO LEAVE...AND WHAT EVER HAPPEN...HAPPENED....THE JUDDS....IVE KNOWN THEM SINCE 1967...THEY WERE A FAMILY OF SIX...TOOK SOME KIDS IN...AND I WAS THERE LAST PERSON THEY TOOK IN...I MOVED IN WITH THEM...1980....I WORKED AT VARIOUS PLACES HERE IN LAKELAND ...AND MEET THIS STUPID REDNECK....AND AUG.6/81 I HAD MY DAUGHTER JAZ(BACK HOME AT HINSDALE IL)K...I GOT PREGOS IN LAKELAND....11/80..HAD A BAD CASE OF MONO...AND CAME HOME TO IL...MY FAMILY DIDNT PUT ME UP ANYWHERE...I WAS LIVING DOWNSTAIRS OF THE PAINT STORE MY FATHER WORKED AT WHICH WAS BEING RENTED TO SOMEONE BUSINESS BUT MY FATHER HAD AMPLE TO THE BASEMENT TO THE OLD STORE...SO...I LIVED THERE...WITH NO FOOD... I THINK THERE WAS A PHONE....SOMEHOW...I DID WORK AT BURGER KING... AND EMERSON AND DOLLY PUT ME UP AT THERE HOUSE IN LISLE IL....I REMEBER GOING OUT WITH MIKE...AT SOME DINNER BAR THERE ON OGDEN AVE...IN LISLE...WE WERE KINDA OF DATING...WHILE I WAS WORKING AT BURGER KING...I DID GO TO THE DOCTOR...IN HINSDALE...FOR MY PREGENCY...DR BUTCHER...LOL......(GREAT)....AND MIKE TAKING ME THERE...I REMEMBER ..TELLIN HIM..THAT WAS SO HARD TO DO...I REALLY LIKED MIKE...I FELT I BROKE HIS HEART...( WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT NOW)....SO I ENDED UP LIVING WITH MERITA...AND TWO WKS BEFORE HAVING THE BABY...I MOVED IN MY GRANDPARENTS APT....SEE...A YEAR EARLIER MY SISTER SUE WAS 18 AND THE DALLNER FAMILY..MADE HER GIVE UP HER BABY....THEY TRIED THAT ON ME...SHIT..I WAS 21..TOLD THEM HELL NO....AND THEY FINALLY TOOK ME IN....SO...OF COURSE THAT WAS THERE GREAT GRANDDAUGHTER....AND JAZ WAS BORN....NEEDLESS TO SAY...AT 6MONTHS I MOVED BACK TO FLA....FOR REASONS...I CAME BACK DOWN TO TAKE CARE AND HELP MRS. JUDD...AND THEY TOOK ME IN...BY THE TIME JAZ WAS 4 I GOT A JOB....AT ZARYES DEPARTMENT STORE ON S FLA AVE IN LAKELAND..(WHICH IS WALLY WORLD NOW..)...

1986...WHILE WORKING AT ZAYRES...I MEET ERNESTO CRUZ JR....I WAS A SKINNY BONNIE ...oh oh..oh...SO...HE WAS TALL DARK AND HANDSOME...100% PUERTORICIAN...AND I FELL FOR HIM....9/4/87 RIGHT ON THE DUED DATE...I HAD MY SON...ERNESTO CRUZ III....TOLD THE DALLNER FAMILY BACK HOME..I DIDNT CARE IF I HAD ANOTHER CHILD WITH/OUT A FATHER....I WAS GOING TO DO THIS ON MY OWN...MAN...THOSE GRANDPARENTS...OMG...TALKING ABOUT BEING RACISTS SOB'S...WHEN I WAS PREGO WITH NESTO....ME AND ERNIE WENT DOWN TO PAMPANO BEACH FL...AND I EMBARSSED THE HELL OUT OF THEM...CUZ I BRANG A COLORED MAN INTO A ALL WHITE PARK....OMG....GET OVER IT...SO I TOLD THEM TO FUCK OFF...THEY THOUGHT I WOULD SCREW UP JASMINE LIFE....WHATEVA....THEY ENDED ACCEPETING NESTO ...SHIT U THINK THEY WOULD EXCEPT GUNNY AND WILLIE....NOPE...FUCK THEM...THEY LONG GONE DEAD...ANYWHO..........
SO I TOOK CARE OF MY KIDS...WENT TO COLLEGE...AND IN 1994 MET MY FUTURE HUBBY...MY ONE AND ONLY HUBBY...YES I HAD 3 BABY DADDYS...WHO CARES...GET OVER IT....MY LIFE..MY RULES...NOT YOURS....MORE IN A MINUTE..............

18 day and still going.......

im into the 18th day of my diet.....ive been doing good....no coke for 20 days....and i still eating at least 3 meals a wk....alternating 6/12 jars of baby food a day....each weekend ive made my sweet mash potaotes....eating salads here and there...making them or gettin that berry chicken salad at wendys.....those are good....endless water... and lemon water...changing my lemons out of the pitcher weekly....having juice here and there.....3 cans a tuna during the week....and trying to chew gum for 5 minutes...on the july 1st going to start my wii workout....so im doing pretty good....this is a record....for me to be dieting....in the past i stop drinking the coke....but this is really ...a big change for me....im doing me...for once...that i gonna do...if it kills me....im having those hunger pains...but not like the first wk...im literally taking this to heart....so wish me luck......i go back to the dr in sept...i hope and need an improvement.....that i can drop this weight...im feeling good about myself..............im not there yet but i will get there....

DEDICATED....TO DET.BOBBY GORAN..AKA VINNIE BABY....

IM A BIG BOY..AND IM A GROWN MAN...2WKS AGO ON CI W/THE THERAPIST....U SURE ARE...BOBBY GOREN...

TONIGHT IS THE LAST CRIMINAL INTENT....WHY WHY WHY......I HAVE FOLLOW VINCENT FOR A LONG TIME....THIS SHOW WILL BE MISSED....BUT THERES THE RERUNS...SO THAT OK......THIS MAN MAKES MY HEART FLUTTERED ...REALLY BAD....HE IS SO DAMN HOT FOR HIS AGE.....LOVE IT...