2012 mes goes to the hospital

IT ALL STARTED WEDNESDAY...TYPICAL HEADACHE...TOOK SOMETHING SOMETHING FOR IT....DIDNT GO AWAY...24 HOURS LATER AND STILL A MAJOR HEADACHED..THURSDAY AT 5:30PM, MES GO TO THE HOSPITAL...BLOOD PREASSURE WAS UP AND MY HEAD HURT....SO GAVE ME SOMETHING GOOD BETTER THEN MORPHENE...HIGH AS A KITE...NICE...LOL.........I GO GET A C SCAN......ER DOC COMES IN SAYS IM STAYING THE NIGHT THERE IS A SPOT ON MY BRAIN...........WHOA........................WTH............MEANING HE SAYS I MIGHT OF HAD A STOKE LONG AGO.......WTF........................ SO NEXT WOULD BE MRI..................SO I GET CK IN AT 11PM THURSDAY NIGHT....I SPILLED EVERYTHING....I SAID I HAD NO BP MEDS FOR THE LAST TWO MONTHS...(.NO MONEY ITS EITHER FOOD) OR COURSE IVE SAID THAT FOR 2 SOMETHNING YEARS NOW...I WOULD DO THAT FOR ME..................U THINK........ AND OF COURSE I HAVENT SLEEP FOR LIKE 5 YEARS...THAT IM STILL MENAPAUSING........NO MONTHLY FOR TWO YEARS.. AND OH I POPPED OVER THE COUNTER MEDS..NYQUIL AND PMS NIGTH TIME JUST TO (14 PILLS A NITE) JUST TO GET TWO HOURS OF SLEEP.... U THINK..............SO I DID LET SOMEBODY KNOW........SO THEY TOOK A EKG.. LET ME EAT...HAD DIEABETC FOOD THE WHOLE TIME UCK................EWWWWWWWWWWWWWW...... GAVE ME PAIN MEDS...SLEPT ONLY 20 MINS...EARLY FRIDAY MORNING....SO...LETS JUST SAY I LOVE THE NIGHT SHIFT NURSES.....7AM SHIFT(12 HR) OMG.............SO THIS RN....ASKING ME (OH HOW I HATE REPEATING) DID MY STORY...I EVEN TOLD THESE PEPS...IM BI POLAR.........SO THEY SURE DO KNOW WHEN A PERSON IS MANIC OR TALKATIVE...THATS ME....LOL..........SHE RAISES HER VOICE TO ME...AND TELLS ME TO CALM DOWN....NEEDLESS TO SAY BY THE TIME WILLIE AND MIKE LEAVE...SHE SAYS SHE SORRY AND OH BY THE WAY YOUR DOCTOR SAID YOU MIGHT OF HAD A STORKE A COUPLE OF YEARS AGO THAT WHATS IS YOUR REPORT......TWO PEPOPLE SAY THIS...WHAT S GIRL TO DO.....SO LATER ON...THIS NERUO CONSULANT COMES IN...DOES HE EXPALINING OF THE SPOT ON MY BRAIN WITH SOME FANCY NAME....DOES THIS NERUO HAND AND TOCUH CAME AND MAKES ME WALK AROUND THE BED AND TELLS ME....NUTHING WRONG WITH ME......SO AS QUALIFTY AS HE WAS...I WAS FLIPIANT BACK TO HIM.....MEANWHILE.. I EAT LUNCH AND IM SITTING WAITING FOR MY MRI....SO AS IMPATIENT AS I WAS...I QUESTION IT.............I WAS WASTING MY TIME...AND THIS RN NURSE WH0M TO BE NICE TO ME AFTER SHE RAISES HER VOICE AND THEM IM SORRY SHE GETS THE DR WHO I ONLY SO ONCE CONVINCES ME TO TAKE THE MRI......DAMN DONT WANT ONE OF THOSE AGAIN..........20-30 OF DIFFERENT SOUNDS OF BEEPS REPEATING OVER AND OVER AGAIN IN DIFFERENT VAIRIASIONS..OMG....(2002 WHEN I HAD MY FIRST AND ONLY NERVOUS BREAKDOWN....DAMN....I KNOW IM CRAZY...LOL BUT REALLY...ALMOST DONE AND I HAD ONLY 3 MORE MINUTES AND I HAVE AN ANXITEY ATTACK...... OMG..........3. MORE MINUTES...WELL OK...ITS DONE.... NEEDLESS TO SAY....AT 1 PM HAD WAS TO GET MY PAIN MEDS....BUT SINCE I WAS TAKING MY MRI...I DONT GET MEDS TIL 4:30PM...I EAT AND BY 6:30 PM MY HEAD WAS HURTING AGAIN...I TELL THIS SECOND SHIFT ..THEY CANT DO NOTHING...OH LETS JUST SAY WHEN I WAS TAKING MY REG MEDS FOR BP AND STUFF....THEY GIVE IT TO YOU ON THERE TIME...( BUT FOR 5+ YEARS I TAKE IT IN THE MORNING...) AND THEY GIVE ME A WATER PILL AT NIGHT...CRAP I DONT SLEEP TO BEGIN WITH...DO I NEED TO PEE AT NIGHT IS THERE A REASON FOR THAT.....OMG...........SO WHEN NIGHT SHIFT COMES BACK IN...BY 9 PM IM HAVING A THIRD ANXIETY ATTACK/OMG IM HAVING A NERVOUS BREAK DOWN AT LEAST THREE SINCE THEY ADMITTED ME........I CRIED SO MUCH I WAS JUST ABOUT TO BLOW CHUNKS...........AND I SETTLE ME DOWN AND ASK TO TALK TO THE HIGHER UP CHARGE NURSE....TO COMPLAIN............EXPAIN....PRESENTED MY CASE...CUZ WHEN I GO INTO COMMON SENSE MODE...DO STOP ME.........I BASICALLY SAID....SO I HAVE A HEADACHE....HAVENT BEEN ON MEDS FOR TWO MONTHS....I STILL HAVE A HEADACE...IM IN PAIN....THIS WHOLE DAY WAS OFF THE CHART ABOUT THE AM NURSES AND THE RETARDED NOTE IT ALL......I HAVE THREE CRYING ATTACKS...IVE SPILLED MY GUTS....THE PM NURSE ARE AS NICE AS THEY COME....COMMON SENSE TELL ME TO GIVE MY REG MEDS IN THE MORNING PLEASE IVE BEEN DOING THAT FOR 5+ YEARS NOW..I SHOULDNT HAVE TO TAKE A WATER PILL AT NIGHT TO PEE I HAD USED A FEW CHOICE WORDS ON HOW I FELT I WAS BEING TREATED AN OR...COMMON SENSE WASNT BEING USED WHILE THE WHOLE TIME I WAS THERE...I MAYBE BI POLAR... I DO TAKE CARE OF TWO PEPS THAT ARE EDERELY AND KNOW THERE MEDICAL HISTORY....I KNOW ABOUT MY OWN MEDICAL AND MEDS AND CAUSES AND EFFECTS IM NOT STUPID HERE....ALL I WANT TO DO IS GET SOME SLEEP AND MAKE THIS PAIN GO AWAY...FOR THE LAST 5 HOURS IVE BEEN IN PAIN....SO THANK GOD THIS I GET PAIN AND SLEEP AND I SLEEP GOOD FOR 5 HOURS..........WOW...I FELT GOOD THIS SATURDAY MORNING I FELF REFRESH FOR ONCE.........I EVEN REQUESTED AFTER THE 7AM PAIN MEDS TO HAVE A LOWER DOSE....WHEN THE NEW 7AM NURSE...I ASKED FOR TYENOL 3 WELL SHE GONNA SO SAY PERKICET OR OXY.............(ME SAYS TO SELF T3 WOULD BE OK) I TOLD ALL THE STAFF THAT I HAD DETOX MY BODY 2 TWICE IN LIFE FOR CONTROLL SUBSTANCE OF MEDS FROM DOCTORS...(WHY GO DOWN THAT ROUTE) ANYWHO...DIDNGT HAVE A PAIN OF HEADACE TIL7PM WHEN I GET HOME... I LEAVE AROUND 5*ISH...FROM THE HOSPITAL.,,GO TO PULBIXS AND WALLY WORLD TO GET PAIN AND REG MEDS...15 PERKICETS AND TRAZEDONE FOR PAIN AND SLEEP I JUST SLEPT FOR 10 DAMN HOURS...................NICE................WOW...............REALLY...YES...I DID.................NOW....NO INSURANCE FOR 5 YEARS...I MADE NO ATTEPMTS TO GO TO THE HOPITAL FOR ANYTHING,,,,,,,,,,, I HAVE NO INSURANCE.....SO I GO...FIRST TIME EVER GETTIN ADIMMITED FOR A STAY......( ONLY WENT TO THE HOSPITAL WHEN I HAD THE CHILDREN.....) IM WORRIED ABOUT HOW THE HELL IM I GOING TO PAY FOR THIS...............SO AS I SIT THERE BY THE TIME THE MRI THING...I WOULD RATER LEAVE...BUT I DIDNT....SELF TOLD ME....RACK THE MONEY UP...GO FOR IT...I CAN BE STUPID AND NOT PAY FOR SOMETHING I DONT HAVE....SHIT....LET IT GO TO THE COLLECTION AGENCY....THATS THE AMERICAN WAY....THIS COURNTRY DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT THE POOR....SO WHAT EVER...............I HATE TO BE THIS WAY.....BUT I MAY GET SHITTY CARE FOR THE COUNTY OR STATE....BUT WHEN U HAVE GOOD QUATILY INSURANCE YOU DO TEND TO GET TREATED BETTER...SINCE I HAVE EXPERIENCE OF THAT...AND NOW IM BACK TO GETTING SHITTY CARE AGAIN.....THIS REALLY SUCKS...BUT THATS OK...THIS IS A PART OF LIFE...NOW IM JUST WAITING FOR IMCOME TAX TO COME...IN A WK I HOPE....LATER...........IM HOME...MAYBE I WILL TRY TO UPKEEP ON MY SELF FOR A MINUTE....YOU KNOW ITS A MOM THING WHEN YOU TAKE CARE OF YOUR CHILD AND HUSBAND AND THE MOMS DONT TAKE CARE OF HER.....................I THINK IT SHOULD BE ME NOW................IF MY SUBBURN SELF WILL LET ME....LOL...............SWEETS IS OUT....LATER..................TO ALL MY FAVS....DIDNT WANT TO TEXT SO I EAMIL YOU ALL.....LOVE U ALL..........ALWAYS.......LOVE