♥BUTTERBALL BABYS LIFE♥: 2012-04-15

Friday, April 20, 2012

thinkin and ponderin................

couple of wks ago.. was buying some natural sleep meds...at the store....and we got to talking...i like when u meet people from other areas of the world....was very impress with some advice he shared when it came...to getting anything done or said or everyday happenings...so...i think im going to sit back and be quiet an let life happening but remember what he told me...im going to start practicing this starting now...and i will let you know if its something to share let alone do it...and its simple as hell..........

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

watching to much.............

TV WHEN IT COMES TO DR PHIL...OPRAH AND OR ANYONE FROM THE PAST...WHEN ITS JUST UPDATED SHIT WITH A DIFFERENT SPIN ON IT....FOR MY MOTHER TO ABANDON ME AS A CHILD...I SURE DIDNT DO THAT TO MY OWN CHILDREN.... ADULT CHILDREN??? ..I ABANDON MY PARENTS...LET ALONE I MADE THE DECISION I ABANDON MY TWO ADULT CHILDREN BY THERE CHOICES THEY MADE ...FOR THE LACK THAT I RAISED THEM RIGHT...BUT THEY F UP ANYWAYS BY BREAKING THE LAWS...AS JUVENILE AND AS ADULTS...........BUT I STILL DONT HAVE ANY REGRETS THAT I RAISED THEM RIGHT....DIFFERENT FROM WHAT WAS DONE TO ME.....AND IF I COULD JUST WALK AWAY.................FAR....................LIVE A TOTALLY DIFFERENT LIFE..I WOULD...MY JOY...I STILL HAVE ONE MY YEAR TO RAISE HIM....HE IS MY OUTCOME OF A GOOD CHILD AND RAISE HIM DIFFERENT FROM MY TWO ADULT CHILDREN....HE SURE DID GROW UP FAST .........DAMN IT.............

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Katy Perry - Part Of Me

NOBODY...AND I MEAN NOBODY CANT TAKE AWAY...PART OF ME.................WHATEVA BITCHES...I AM WHO I AM...........DONT LIKE TO BAD SO SAD..................

DAMN STRIGHT

JACKIES BIRTHDAY PICS ...4/11/12

COWBOY HAT WITH LAST YEARS TIE..MY HUBBY MADE OF TIN FOIL...

HIM TWO....(14)

YES WE DID HIS BDAY....WE DO BDAYS IN MY HOUSE........................

ALONE.........................

AS LIFE STROLLS BY............IM SITTING HERE...WHAT THE HELL IM I DOING WHEN IT COMES TO ME...........MAH..........MAMA...MOMMY......SWEETS....BUTTERBALL...SWEETIE...........DAMN........

BUT MOST OF ALL I FEEL SO ALONE..........AROUND ME...INCLUDING FAMILY...HUSBAND...AND FRIEND OR FRIENDS....I RATHER BE SOMEWHERE ELSE....SOME OTHER STATE LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST....I COULD GO OUT WEST...THAT WOULD BE A GOOD IDEAL........DAMN THE MOTHER WALKED AWAY...AND I WAS 10..............SHIT IM 52.......AND 42YRS OF NOTHING..........IM STILL STUCKED.....WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO..............................

my son is pulling a fast one on me..7 days and he is out of prison from a 6 yr sentence....which i happen to put him there..............either he is waiting til the last minute to live with me...cuz he has to do probation.. .............well make your choice little boy....becuz that choice chooses your destiny for life................but you know....my daughter has done that to me her whole life....i should just expects that u would do that to me also...........thats ok.....i have came from a life of hell done to me by my family....and me.....who decided to get the help and understand that it wasnt my fault.................. ............im done...............i have lived my life with out breaking the law ....i have lived my life as close to a christian even thou my thought of church the way i saw it was fake as they come..............i have live my life with dignity.. i raised my last child my child of pride totally different then your sista..............i have live my life thru bullshit...hardache...disappointment...and have stuggle to be where i am today.................so if i ditzzzzzzzzzzed the damn pervious children that came out of my ass..............so be it...............you do your best to raise them and they fuck u up as much as my own family did when i was kid...and i gave them alot better life then was done to me...........so.............YOU LIVE ...YOU LEARN....IM DONE............LIFE GOES ON....SO BE IT..............WHATEVA ...YOUR MAMMY....