HOW DO I SAY THIS....READ AT YOUR OWN RISK......

IM REALLY GOING TO LET IT RIPPED....READ AT YOUR OWN RISK

i guess im playing this wife thing to much....at this point...im done being a wife....as i look back on my life...i really didnt have a hectic life with men in my life....i had a total of 6/7 boyfriends in life...#3/4/7 i had my children...and only married #7..4 tryed to marry me..but who wants to marry an alcholic(gee my father was one) i never gave in on 4...yrs later he tells me he wanted more kids from me..thank god i gave him one....not in this life time...lol...REALLY....IM A MATERIAL GIRL.....LOL.......

i never did that scene screwing men...like these bitches today.... bitches  screwing and drinking and drugging...and licking dick and pussys...come on....THERE ARE WOMEN...that are not that way....IM A GROWN ASS WOMAN........

so i married ...big deal....ive gotten so strong as a woman...this man doesnt make me cry....he makes me MAD...AND PISSED AND ANGRY....i took him for who he is.....he needed someone to take care of him....shit his family didnt...his mama still dont like me...(its black/white thing)....his daddy side of the family acceptted me and one of his brothers asked me would i take care of him...yes i will...yes i am....

but as 16 yrs of marriage...together for 17...im done with the marriage part of it....i will still take care of him...he just going to sleep and live in his son's room...since i have a masterbathroom and bedroom....i live in my room  like i do anyways.....

i know he is getting old...and im sure he is tired of me.....lately when im bitchin... he is ignoring me big time....doesnt answer me...he has played this sick card shit with me...when i would ask him to do something for me or for his kid...and he dont feel good all of a sudden...so...fuck it..fuck him.....he really thinks he is a macho man...acting tough and all that....so he works a 3 hour job...that he makes a 6 hour job out of....plus he has fucked that up....if i anit bitchin on that....how do u fuck up vaccuming...sweep/mop and dust and bathrooms....it has been done...ive seen it with my own eyes....


so i may take care of him....but im going to do what the fuck i want.....i know that....this bitch cant be tied down....this marriage thing is for the birds....i may be a decent woman...and i take care of my family...but i dont have to live a life without love...kindness and caring....since 2007 that thing is dead.....and 2011 is here almost gone...but...THINGS CAN HAPPEN....IM JUST SAYING....MAMA...making plans ....and going after what she wants...................

so....living my life...he just eats sleeps and works...he has the eating down part and the sleeping part...but thats his life....get over it all ready....so what...you gave your life to that damn job...for 25 yrs and they still fucked u.....so now u just want to be lazy as fuck dont take care of your son and wife...thats ok....u pay the rent....i take care of the rest...and his job now just pays the rent...exactlly the rent...i rent for 750.00 and he brings home 511.00....we poor as fuck...but...i take care of his ass ...others in this family didnt...at least i gave my man a life of luxury....meaning showing him a better life then what he was use too....which was nothing .. i least i brang him out of the project....and got him to the better half of the town we live in...so...we may be married....we have a beautiful son...but...my job is done as a wife....im still as independent since i was 18...i take care of things...my kids...that husband...but...now its MAMA'S turn to live life....and do for herself...and let things happen for a fucntional happy life...i anit going to dicvorce my husband..im not that cruel...i will take care of him...thats my job....so its an OPEN MARRIAGE...IM GOING TO HELL...AND I DONT GIVE A FUCK...LIVIN LIFE TO THE FULLEST....THIS IS SWEETS....AKA BUTTERBALLBABY....THIS BITCH IS FREE AS FUCK....GO GET IT LADY B........

IM FREE....

IM FREE...FOR ME...IM FREE....YES ME.....IM FREE...YES BE....FOR ME....

HOTT DIGGTY DAMN....NEW LIFE....STARTS NOW....

productive....

today i did my friends resume and cover letters....for job prospects here in fl....

nothing on tv ....as usual....doing jack.....bored as hell...tired as hell...did get to sleep for 8 hours last night..that was a relief....anywho...im out..im gone..later....sweets out.........