MY DAUGHTER TURNS 30 TODAY...NOTHING TO SHOW FOR IT...BUT HAVING HER THREE CHILDREN....WHEN I WAS 30...21YRS AGO...I HAD TWO KIDS...A APT...CABLE...CAR....AND I JUST COMPLETED MY FIRST YEAR OF COLLEGE..............
SHE HAS DISAPPOINTED ME...AND HAS BROKEN MY HEART....IS THERE NO END TO THIS...I THINK SO...I HAD WASHED MY HANDS OF HER....DONT CARE IF IM A MOMMY OR SOME BITCH....LITERALLY RAKED OVER THE COALS FROM HER...WILL THERE BE IMPROVEMENT WITH HER.....NO.....TO BAD SO SAD.....KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK JASMINE....U DOING SO GREAT AS A MOM....PROVIDER...AND WHATEVA ELSE U DO....WHICH IS NUTHING.............(me the writer..my own mother left me and my four sisters....and had that wicked stepmother bitch...im so thankful i had one daughter...cuz if i had three of them(my kids)i would kick the bitches out...so THANKS...to my mother...who gave me the tools...not to like the female daughter...cuz...this MAMA...has and was a good mother to all her kids...i can see where the mother/daughter/hate/love relationship really do exsist...ive lived it....) AS FOR MY SON...ERNESTO...HE WOULD BE MY IDEAL DAUGHTER....LOL....MY GAY SON...ERNESTO....LOVE U CRUZ...
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Saturday, August 6, 2011
Thursday, August 4, 2011
WOW........
AMAZING....SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TOO OF MY FUTURE...OF HAPPINESS...EVEN IF ITS A COUPLE OF DAYS...IVE LITERALLY WAITED FOR THIS MOMENT...AND IT WILL HAPPEN...WOW............LIFE IS GOOD..GOOD IS LIFE....
HAVING THOUGHTS AND TAUNTS ABOUT.........
MY SWEET FRIEND...TALKING MORE AND MORE DAILY....AS THESE WEEKS GO BY....HE PUTTING A SMILE ON MY FACE...AND MAKING ME LAUGH....LISTENING...CARING...UNDERSTANDING AND GIVING ADVICE WHEN NEEDED TO EACH OTHER.....AND WANTING MORE......BEEN DAYDREAMING ABOUT HIM....I WANT MORE...AND HOW WILL I GO ABOUT IT.....IM ONE OF THOSE WOMEN...THAT I WILL DO WHAT I WANT..I DONT FOLLOW THE RULES WHEN I WANT WHAT I WANT....SO AS THIS JOURNEY BEGINS WITH AND ABOUT BE..............MAMA GOING FOR IT.....LIVING LIFE...TIME TO MAKE ME....SWEETS A HAPPY CAMPER...... HERE IS A LITTLE SOMETHING ABOUT ME AND 93 THINGS ABOUT ME.........
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = large mickey d's coffee
2. last phone call =Apparently I called mike radice
3. last text message = gunther
4. last song you listened to = kickstart my heart/motley crue
5. last time you cried =friday night with mike radice.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice =yes..ernesto cruz jr..ewwwwww. .
7. been cheated on = Yes
8. kissed someone & regretted it = nope
9. lost someone special = yes..im talking to him now...........
10. been depressed = Yes.
11. been drunk: No....................2times with that damn ernesto cruz jr...in my (20's)
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12.purple
13. hunter freen
14. burgandy
THIS YEAR (2011), HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend =yes
16. Fallen out of love = Yes
17. Laughed until you cried = Once
18. Met someone who changed you = Yes
19. Found out who your true friends were =yep
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Yes.
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = yes does the other half count...
GENERAL:
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = All
24. Do you have any pets =jack the cat...
25. Do you want to change your name = no
26. What did you do for your last birthday = what birthday..it was horrible
27. What time did you wake up today =6:15am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = sleeping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = blueeyes....m...r....
30. Last time you saw your mother =mothersday..1978
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = i would of pick a better college to go to..i would of changed my mind 30yrs ago...about..my decision with jasmine...i would of fought to win over blueeyes...but now i will work on getting blueeyes...i really love him...always have and always will..this man puts a smile on my face...and make me all gittty....
32. What are you listening to right now = telling the girls to wash there hands...
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? =no
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = the girls are not listening....
35. Most visited webpage =facebook of course.
37. Nicknames =sweets..butterball ..sweetie..mom..bitch...lol......38. Relationship Status = well im debating about it..i tired now with mr willie...and im having a adult conversation with blue eyes..m...r....the name is up above...lol... 39. Zodiac sign =sagataruis..
40. He or She = he..
41. Elementary/Middle =edgewood elem../jefferson jr.high
42. High School =downers grove north
43. College =tampa college of lakeland
44. Hair color = blonde.at the moment....
45. Long or short = long
46. Height = 5'8"
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = yep...blueeyes...always have and always will.... m...r...
48. What do you like about yourself? =i do what i want..nobody can stop me....
49. Piercings = two, both ears.
50. Tattoos = i wish...want one bad of gene simmons tongue........
51. Right or left handed = Right
FIRSTS :
52. First crush:david cassidy.....
53. First piercing = Ears,16 years old.
54. First best friend = bonnie .....
55. First sport you joined = nevered did that
56. First vacation =1979 came down to fl...and went to disney world....on my own...without the dallner family..we didnt do vaca...........
RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = Nothing
60. Drinking = water.
61. I'm about to be = busy...and folding the wash....
62. Listening to = the girls playing and getting ready for a nap....
63. Waiting for = blueeyes to call me.............
YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids? = have three.......
65. Get Married? = nope...want to live in sin.............lol......................
66. Career? =nanny............
WHICH IS BETTER?:
67. Lips or eyes = lips
68. Hugs or Kisses =always
69. Shorter or taller = Taller.
70. Older or Younger =young....
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Yes.
72. Nice stomach or Nice Arms = arms...
73. Sensitive or loud = Sensitive.
74. Hook-up or relationship =relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant =both...i love to cause trouble..without gettin caught...but then im hesitant..when it comes..to...............????.
HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger = nope
77. Drank hard liquor = last friday..with my bbf pat at applebees...
78. Lost glasses/contacts = yes.
80. Broken someone's heart = Yes..blueeyes back in 1981
81. Had your own heart broken = yep...by ernesto cruz.jr...jasmine dallner...
82. Been arrested = yep at the age of 40...and proud of it........
83. Turned someone down = yes..blue eyes back in 1981....
84. Cried when someone died = Yes.
85. Fallen for a friend = Yes..blueeyes..backin 2010
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself =right now..im trying to do just that...having a new attutude about doing what i want to do..and get what i want.....
87. Miracles = Yes88. Love at first sight = yes...blueeyes...m...r.....
89. Heaven = Yes.
90. Santa Claus = im santa clause...duh.......
91. Kiss on the first date = Yes
92. Angels = Yes
93. Unicorns =sure....its bright he tells me...told me it will make me blind.........lol.........ooooooooooo baby baby
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = large mickey d's coffee
2. last phone call =Apparently I called mike radice
3. last text message = gunther
4. last song you listened to = kickstart my heart/motley crue
5. last time you cried =friday night with mike radice.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice =yes..ernesto cruz jr..ewwwwww. .
7. been cheated on = Yes
8. kissed someone & regretted it = nope
9. lost someone special = yes..im talking to him now...........
10. been depressed = Yes.
11. been drunk: No....................2times with that damn ernesto cruz jr...in my (20's)
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12.purple
13. hunter freen
14. burgandy
THIS YEAR (2011), HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend =yes
16. Fallen out of love = Yes
17. Laughed until you cried = Once
18. Met someone who changed you = Yes
19. Found out who your true friends were =yep
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Yes.
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = yes does the other half count...
GENERAL:
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = All
24. Do you have any pets =jack the cat...
25. Do you want to change your name = no
26. What did you do for your last birthday = what birthday..it was horrible
27. What time did you wake up today =6:15am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = sleeping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = blueeyes....m...r....
30. Last time you saw your mother =mothersday..1978
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = i would of pick a better college to go to..i would of changed my mind 30yrs ago...about..my decision with jasmine...i would of fought to win over blueeyes...but now i will work on getting blueeyes...i really love him...always have and always will..this man puts a smile on my face...and make me all gittty....
32. What are you listening to right now = telling the girls to wash there hands...
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? =no
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = the girls are not listening....
35. Most visited webpage =facebook of course.
37. Nicknames =sweets..butterball ..sweetie..mom..bitch...lol......38. Relationship Status = well im debating about it..i tired now with mr willie...and im having a adult conversation with blue eyes..m...r....the name is up above...lol... 39. Zodiac sign =sagataruis..
40. He or She = he..
41. Elementary/Middle =edgewood elem../jefferson jr.high
42. High School =downers grove north
43. College =tampa college of lakeland
44. Hair color = blonde.at the moment....
45. Long or short = long
46. Height = 5'8"
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = yep...blueeyes...always have and always will.... m...r...
48. What do you like about yourself? =i do what i want..nobody can stop me....
49. Piercings = two, both ears.
50. Tattoos = i wish...want one bad of gene simmons tongue........
51. Right or left handed = Right
FIRSTS :
52. First crush:david cassidy.....
53. First piercing = Ears,16 years old.
54. First best friend = bonnie .....
55. First sport you joined = nevered did that
56. First vacation =1979 came down to fl...and went to disney world....on my own...without the dallner family..we didnt do vaca...........
RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = Nothing
60. Drinking = water.
61. I'm about to be = busy...and folding the wash....
62. Listening to = the girls playing and getting ready for a nap....
63. Waiting for = blueeyes to call me.............
YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids? = have three.......
65. Get Married? = nope...want to live in sin.............lol......................
66. Career? =nanny............
WHICH IS BETTER?:
67. Lips or eyes = lips
68. Hugs or Kisses =always
69. Shorter or taller = Taller.
70. Older or Younger =young....
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Yes.
72. Nice stomach or Nice Arms = arms...
73. Sensitive or loud = Sensitive.
74. Hook-up or relationship =relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant =both...i love to cause trouble..without gettin caught...but then im hesitant..when it comes..to...............????.
HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger = nope
77. Drank hard liquor = last friday..with my bbf pat at applebees...
78. Lost glasses/contacts = yes.
80. Broken someone's heart = Yes..blueeyes back in 1981
81. Had your own heart broken = yep...by ernesto cruz.jr...jasmine dallner...
82. Been arrested = yep at the age of 40...and proud of it........
83. Turned someone down = yes..blue eyes back in 1981....
84. Cried when someone died = Yes.
85. Fallen for a friend = Yes..blueeyes..backin 2010
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself =right now..im trying to do just that...having a new attutude about doing what i want to do..and get what i want.....
87. Miracles = Yes88. Love at first sight = yes...blueeyes...m...r.....
89. Heaven = Yes.
90. Santa Claus = im santa clause...duh.......
91. Kiss on the first date = Yes
92. Angels = Yes
93. Unicorns =sure....its bright he tells me...told me it will make me blind.........lol.........ooooooooooo baby baby
Sunday, July 31, 2011
GEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEUUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
I WENT AHEAD AND BOUGHT FOOD YESTERDAY...I TOLD HIM LAST NIGHT FROM NOW ON...NO EATING AT NIGHT...THE KITCHEN IS CLOSED...........THIS BITCH ATE HALF A LOAF OF RAISIN BREAD...GOD DAMN ..................I SWEAR...I ANIT BUYING FOOD.......FUCKIN FAT ASS...........I JUST TOLD HIM..TO ASK TO EAT...DAMN DO I HAVE TO TREAT HIM LIKE A CHILD....I GUESS SO.........SHIT...RING AND CUT HIS BALLS OFF...JACK ASS BITCH.................
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