a note i put on fb the other day

WELL............ITS BEEN A ROUGH YEAR....SO MANY THINGS WENT WRONG...SO MANY THINGS WERE CHANGES....SO MUCH BULL SHIT...COULD OF BEEN DISMISSED IF.....I MEAN IF...............SINCE JAN....I SCREWED ONE OF THE FIRST BILLS....WHICH WAS CABLE....I DO GET FREE CABLE...BUT IT TOOK ME LONG ENOUGH TO GET THE BILL CONDESNESED DOWN....STILL BEHIND....AND IT WILL BE CUT OFF...SOON....I HAVE THE EXTRA HUNDRED CHANNELS AND INTERNET...BUT NO PHONE...USING THE CELL...FOR EVERYTHING....
THEN WE LOST OUR INCOME TAX.......DONE INJURED SPOUSE FOR 15+YRS...WOW....I HAVENT WORKED SINCE 12/2010 WE FILE...NORMAL...AND WE LOSE OVER 4500.00 IN EARN INCOME...GOT IN A CAR ACCIDENT...AND MY TAX INCOME GOES TO MY DAMN SCHOOL LOAN...LET ALONE IT NEVER GOTS MONEY FROM ME EVER...SINCE 20YRS AGO WHEN I WAS IN COLLEGE......UGHHHHHHHH
WE APPLY FOR FOOD STAMPS..................SO WHAT PEOPLE OR FRIEND OR FAMILY OF MINE....I REALLY DONT CARE WHAT U THINK... MY HUBBY LOST HIS JOB IN 2007 MAKING 35.000.00 AYR....AND FOR THE LAST 5YRS...NOT EVEN 7000.00 YRLY INCOME....YES WE LIVED OFF THE 401K THAT HE WORKED HARD FOR.....AT LEAST WE PAID THE CAR OFF BACK IN 2009 WITH SOME OF THAT 401K........WE HAVE A CHILD UNDER THE AGE OF 18...OUR 401K RAN OUT IN 11/2011...SO FEB...167.00 IN FOOD STAMPS.....NOW ITS BEEN FINALLY SET FOR 300.00...PLUS WE HAVE MEDICALLY NEEDY MEDICAID FROM THE STATE......SHARED COST AT 180.00 A MONTH...AND WE REAPPLY EVERY 6MONTHS FOR THIS.......
IT TOOK ALL SUMMER LONG TO GET ON THE POLK HEALTH PLAN....GOING THRU RED TAPE WITH THEM...AND OR FOOD STAMPS...MEDICAID....WERE WE PAY 1.00 FOR OUR OFFICE VISIT AND PAY 1.00 FOR MEDS.....BUT SINCE WE ARE CHRONIC CARE PATEINTS...WE NOW GET TO PAY ZERO.....YOU HEARD RIGHT....00000000 MONIES FOR OUR MEDS........PRIOR TO A YEAR AND THE LAST 8+MONTHS HAVE NO MEDS FOR ME AND OR MY HUBBY.....WE STRAIGHT NOW..............I DONT GIVE A RATS ASS WHAT U ALL THINK.....THIS COUNTRY IS SO MESSED UP...BECUZ OF STUPID ASS REPUBILCANS....WHO F UP THIS CRAP.........................................
FOR OTHER AREAS IN MY LIFE.....I JUST FOUND OUT...MY DAUGHTER WHO HAS BEEN IN A NUT HOSPITAL IN MISSISSIPPI...I GOT WORD LAST NIGHT....SHE THERE FOR THE NEXT TWO YEARS......................I HOPE SHE LEARNS SOMETHING FROM IT.......ME....IM DONE WITH THAT CHAPTER WITH HER.....I DONT CARE WHAT YOU ALL THINK.....IVE BEEN THRU HELL AND BACK....IF NOT FROM A FAMILY WAY BACK IN WOODRIDGE IL.....TO.... A CHILD.....THAT I TRYED...MY BEST....WALKED ALL OVER ME.....HURT ME BEYOND BELIEF.........
MY SON ERNESTO CAME HOME FROM PRISON IN APRIL......GOOD TO HAVE HIM HOME.....BUT....?????.................MY GIRL DESTROYED ME....BAD.....MY SON IS A REVOLVING DOOR IN MY HOUSE......THIS WILL NOT LAST ..................THIS WILL TOO STOP...SOON....I HOPE.......

MY HEART ACHES...TO SEE MY GRANDBABIES..

SCHOOL IN MISSISSIPPI

PASSION 8TH BDAY

ASHLEY..MEL..KEKE

KEKE MONSTERS

MELLY

ASH AND KEKE

MY BABY

MY TWIN TO THE END

 MY BEAUTIFUL GRANDDAUGHTERS...

HANDSOME GRANDSON..MEL NAE...

KEOSHA MICHELLE TRAVIS...

ASHLEY..THERE OLDER SISTER....

ONLY THRU PICS CAN I SEE THEM....

GUNNY SUPPORTING.........

WORE THIS AT SCHOOL TODAY...HIM NEW FRIEND...(a girl) gave him this shirt to wear...

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY PASSION

HAPPY 8TH BIRTHDAY PASSION...AKA LAYLAY MAMA...GRANNY LOVES U...ALWAYS AND FOREVER...MERMAID GIRL...LOVE U KEKE MONSTERS..,.LOVE U MAILMAN...LOVE GRANNY...HAVE A GOOD DAY...LAYLAY....KEKE...WHEN I COME SEE YOU..I PROMISE I WILL GIVE U A BIRTHDAY......LOVE GRANNY

I JUST DID A POWER MOVE........

OVER THE SUMMER....I GOT THESE LAWYERS....FROM RHODE ISLAND... TO HAVE THEM GET MIND AND WILLIES SSI........THRU THE MONTHS.....IF I WASNT GETTING WRONG AND IGORANT EMAILS....I SAW NO COMMPASSION AND OR KINDNESS...OR CONDSIDERATION...FROM THESE PEOPLE...

AND I GOOGLED THESE ASS WIPES....

SO ...NOW..I FOUND SOME NEW LAWYERS FROM LAKELAND AND THEY ARE WILLING TO HELP NOW....

WISHED I NEVERED MADE THAT MISTAKE.....EVER.......WELL U LIVE AND LEARN...ME OUT...LATER

A COULPLE OF STRESSORS ...

ALONG THE WAY....SINCE THE SUMMER STARTED...RUNNING TO GET THINGS IN ORDER FOR HEALTH CARE..FOR A BUCK.....WHICH STARTED 9/1/12...SO WE ARE BACK ON OUR MEDS....AND ADDED MEDS FOR ME AT THAT...........WILLIE HAS TO SEE THE UROLOGISTS MONDAY..HIS PROSTRATE NUMBER IS A 9.? AND I HOPE ITS NOT ANYTHING....HE JUST HASNT BEEN ON THAT MED FOR OVER 18 MONTHS.......

ME...I COUNTED 15 PILLS...NOT THE EXTRA 5 AT NIGHT........TOOK MY TITS TEST...IM CLEARED..........WOOHOO............THEY STILL IN MY WAY..............15TH THE GOOD OLE PAP NEEDS TO BE DONE..........WE ARE NOW ON THE CHRONIC CARE PLAN...WHERE WE STILL PAY A 1.00 FOR CARE....OR SCRIPTS WILL BE FREE...........AT WALLY WORLD....YEAH ON THAT.........

I SCREWED THE CABLE BILL SINCE JAN OF THIS YEAR...TRYING TO GET CAUGHT UP ON THAT............MADE ARRANGEMENTS AT TIME SINCE THEN...AND THEY CALLED THRUSDAY OF THIS WK...I TOLD THEM...( I OWE 150.00) IM 35.00 BEHIND ...THEM BITCHIN....CALL AGAIN COME PICK UP MY SHIT AND CANCELL MY INTERNET...I REALLY DONT GIVE SHIT...I MEAN REALLY..................COUNTRY IS FALLING APART...AND PEOPLES ARE BITCHIN FOR MONEY.............. MY RED SET TEE WAS PICKED UP AND THE SMALL HD TV IN MY ROOM....BADCOCK CAME AND PICKED IT UP......CUZ...I COULDNT AFFORED THE 35.00 PYMT...WHICH I LAPPED TO 45.00 10 DAYS LATER...AND ONLY OWE 450.00.....I TOLD THEM COME PICK IT UP...AND FUCK MY CREDIT UP...I DONT CARE.........

SO RENT...LIGHTS...2 LIFE INS POLICYS.....CAR INS....AND MY CELL...AND MAYBE THE CABLE BILL..................SORRY....THATS ALL I CAN SCRATCH.....

LATER.............

SO MUCH ON MY MIND......

HAVING SO MUCH ON MY MIND....I LITERALLY STOPPED BLOGGIN......WELL...IT JUST DAWNED ON ME....YEAR 6 WAS THREE DAYS AGO...THAT I STARTED BLOGGIN...SO...HERE I GO...WHERE DO I START.....



MY DAUGHTER IS STILL IN THE HOSPITAL UP THERE IN MISSISSIPPI....NOW 5+ MONTHS IN THE CRAZY PLACE....5+ MONTHS SINCE SHE WALKED AWAY FROM HER CHILDREN MY GRANDBABIES.....THIS REALLY PISSING ME OFF....BUT IT ALSO HURTS...I CALLED UP THERE ON KEKE'S BIRTHDAY..AND NEXT WK I WILL DO THE SAME TO LAYLAY MAMA....AND THESE PHONE CALLS...I PUT UP A GOOD FRONT TO ASK HOW THEY DOING...AND THEY DONT TALK..ITS JUST A YES MA'AM...IT FEELS LIKE THEY FORGOT ABOUT ME...THEY KNOW THE VOICE..BUT ITS NOT THE SAME...THEY ARE 8/7 NOW...I DONT EVEN KNOW THEM ANYMORE....THANKS ALOT JAZ....U DONE WHAT U WANTED TO DO ALL ALONG....TO MAKE SURE I WASNT IN THE PICTURE...WHATEVER BITCH......


I HAVE A FEW DIFFERENT ENTRYS OF MY BLOGS...HERE...WHERE I NEED TO GET OFF SOME STEAM.......IM SO PISSED...IM SO DONE...BUT I NEED TO EXPRESS...MORE IN A MINUTE..................