took gunny to the dr today......

OMG.....i hate the county mental health center here in lakeland fl... dang im pissed....one.... gunny is on this one med and she wants him on it 24/7.. and i said sorry im letting his body rest from it..she will not prescribe it for me next month.. cause i have concerns on it...so im researching for a different kind of med before i go next month...they said in gunts file that he may have pdd/autism....two.... here goes...... the old dr that was there.. diagnosis him a year ago.. and did not tell me... and i find out 22 days ago...hold up... i told this new dr... thats not right..(the old dr is in mgt now)..i started to have anxiety attack ...and gunny got upset and cried.. and right then and there.. she told me.. gunther does not have autism...because he reacted as a normal child when his parent got upset...autism kids do not react to stress like that... i said oh really.. i told this dr.. im going thru some dysfunctional bs with my daughter.. and that i dont like this center.... and told her i have not been off my meds for 7months now.. becuz im fighting my depression...bi-polar-manic depression crap....cause the meds anit working... back in the 90's when i went to go get help at this center for the bs stuff that happen to me as a child... they didnt listen then..because i have no insurance i have to come here... for my child.. but for me.. no way.. i told her im a fighter.. and my son gunny keeps me going and im focusing on him...for what he has been thru in life.. i told this dr.. that my two oldest kids have put me thru hell and back and i will not fail this last child of mine... i know im not suppose to feel that way... but what jaz and ernesto have done to me.. im thru with this crap....gunny and willie are my top priority at this moment....so i need to refocus and put my energy on gunny and me... oh yes willie too... he some where in this house..lol....bonnie