WHY....ok......here goes.............

been debating how long i would let this stewed in my head.....my husband...damn him.................this man..pawned the wedding ring...and got 900.00 for it..and gave it all away to the arts in the park..gallery downtown lakeland....we have no money...he did this last wk...tuesday night i was going to ask for the ring to pawn so we could pay bills maybe get food in the house...stuff like that....i pawned it last wk he says...i said how much. ok( 1,2,3)..told him to get the **** out of my car..he comes over on the other side..to give me a kiss...and i said...jasmine has broken my heart..ernesto has broken my heart and now you....i closed the door and drove home...i have not yet cussed him..yelled....b****h...i am so furious with that man of mind......i anit talkin to his ass....im so hurt and pissed off....OMG....wtf.....im tryin not to go there...not to get upset...and i have to pop a xannx...moment....so...im stewin....so i had to vent this...there is a story behind this...do i go into his concept of what he did...so here goes... about 5months back he wants to show his art at the upstairs gallery..in the gallery downtown..well u have to show your portfolio..25.00 non refundable and the committee will let you know in 90 days yes or no.and you get to display the art for 100.00 for the month... well these 5 months back...i was trying to get his portfolio going..i bought a leather 8 by 10 size case..plastic coverings.. went to kinkos..to have his face on one side and info on the other side...and bought like 10 pages...so i could have him and me sit down and take the drawings of his art..pic the good pieces..and i would go find a bigger portfolio for his paintings...i been wanting to do this for 5 years..we cant afford for someone to do this...so i was taking on this project......the man threw away 8 of the 10 pages(info/pic)...so i told him **** you..thats it.. u dont listen to what im trying to do for you...i just said screw it..dont have time...so...is he trying to impress someone downtown at the gallery or what...i get jealous of him and his art...i mean..he forgets to put wife first..sorry im being selfish at this point...but...i been behind him about his art from day one...and now...i really dont give a damn at this point..willie is very hard headed... and stubborn man...and he dont listen...he is and always has been in willie world....i could go on and on about other things..but this is now on my mind and i dont know what to do...i took my wedding ring off....damn life sucks.................well got to take care of the baby...him crying..im out...