I REALLY DO......HATE.......HATE.....HATE.....

LETS SEE...HOW MANY TIMES...I CAN FUCKIN WRITE ALL THIS BULLSHIT.... I HAVE INSIDE OF ME..............IM SO .... F   U   C  K   I  N..   T   I  R  E D...


WELL...I THINK FIRST OFF I GOING TO LET GO  OF FRIENDS....THINKING ALONG...THAT THEY WERE FRIENDS....WHEN THERE NOT....SOME OF THESE PEOPLE I WORKED WITH...BUT STILL....IM A DUMB ASS...WAITING FOR THEM....TO MAKE TIME.....BUT I GET IT....I DONT NEED FRIENDS THAT SAY I LOVE U..AND IN RETURN....DONT GIVE U THE TIME OF DAY.....

SOME PERSONAL FRIENDS ...THAT I FELL OUT OF FRIENDSHIP.....AND THE FRIENDSHIP IS THERE...BUT...NOT FULLY....IM GETTING TO FEEL...I NEED TO FALL OUT OF THOSE RELATIONSHIPS AGAIN.....

AND THEN I DO EVERYTHING....AND ANYTHING....FOR EVERYONE...I DONT DO ME....

IM A CONTROL BITCH...ON LIFE...FAMILY...AND I DONT WANT TO DO THAT ANYMORE......THE DUMB ASS HUSBAND.....IM DONE.....WHY IM I TAKING CARE OF A 60YR OLD KID.....THAT HAS BEEN TAKING BY MY HAND FOR 18YRS....WHY....I DO EVERYTHING FOR HIM....MOST OF THE TIME...WHEN IM ON HIS ASS..AND BITCHIN..OH OK...IS THE ANSWER..... WHY IM I MARRIED TO A MAN...THAT DOESNT HE  INITIATE THE ROLL OF A MAN...WHEN IT COMES TO THE MARRIAGE PART OF IT....WHY DO I HAVE TO ASK.....WHY DO I TRY TO GET HIM...TO DO THIS...WHEN IN THE END...NOTHING... WHY DOES HE HAVE TO EAT ALL THE FOOD IN THE HOUSE...EAT IT..TO A POINT....OH LETS HAVE ANOTHER HEART ATTACK...AND HARDEN OF THE  ARTERIES LIKE EATING MAYO.....SUGAR...BUTTER IN EVERYTHING...U HAD ONE FUCKIN HEART ATTACK........I CANT KEEP NOTHING IN THE HOUSE.....I TAKE CARE OF THIS BASTARD......

MY SONS..ARE OLD ENOUGH TO TAKE CARE OF THEM.....SO FUCK THEM....THEY CAN DO WITH OUT ME....PRESAY.....


I HAVE A FEW FRIENDS THAT ARE DESCENT....AND OR...LOVE ME FOR WHOM I AM...LET ALONE....DONT JUDGE ME..OR CORRECT ME....THOSE I WILL TREASURE THOSE FRIENDSHIPS....VLADIE....FATBOY...SWEET CAROLINE AND SWEET RACHEL....THESE BABIES....ARE REAL AND GENUINE

AS FOR FAMILY MEMBERS...FUCK EM....I KEEP THAT UP....EVERY SECOND OF THE DAY..


BUT I SURE...DONT LIKE IT...WHEN SOMEONE DOESNT HAVE YOUR BACK....AND SAYS ITS U...BONNIE...REALLY..... WHATEVER.........

I NEED NEW FRIENDS....LITERALLY.....LIKE GET A FEW GAY FRIENDS...I DO NOW... I SHOULD HAVE A FEW MORE.....SOONER THAN LATTER....BOBBY...VARI....MY BOY NESTO....BRUCIE...(harrys).....MY SWEET AL....AT PERKINS..IN WINTERHAVEN.. ....

SO GONNA CLEAN UP..AND ELIMINATE .....U ALL CAN KISS MY FUCKIN ASS............IM SO THRU...WITH...EVERYONE...