OK............IM SO DONE WITH THAT MAN...MY HUSBAND....

BEEN MARRIED FOR 16YRS TOGETHER FOR 17...LATELY...IM GETTING TO THE POINT...IM DONE...I MEAN I STILL TAKE CARE OF HIS ASS...BUT...IM SO OVER OF THIS.............

HE IS A GOOD PROVIDER..AND FATHER....BUT....HE IS SLIPPING .....

BACK IN 2007 HE GOT LAID OFF ON THIS JOB OF 25YRS...HE WAS DEDICATED TO THAT JOB..I UNDERSTAND AND ACCEPT THAT....BUT...HE DID THE 6MONTHS OF UNEMPLOYMENT..FOUND A JOB...THRU A CLEANING COMPANY..AND HE WORKS 7DAYS A WK TWO DAY OFF A YEAR AT HARRYS BAR N GRILL DOWNTOWN LAKELAND..HE HATES THIS JOB...I UNDERSTAND AND ACCEPT THAT...BUT ALL HE HAS TO DO IS SWEEP/MOP VACCUM AND CLEAN THE BATHROOMS...HE DID THE KITCHEN FLOORS FOR A MINUTE...BUT THEY ALL ARE CUTTING CORNERS....IN THIS DAMN RECESSION SHIT.......ANYWAYS.......ITS A 3HOUR JOB...DOES NOT GET PAID BY THE HOUR .GETS PAID TO GET THE JOB DONE(HE MAKES IT A 5/6HR JOB NIGHTLY)...NOT MUCH MONEY...BUT IT PAYS THE RENT..AND HE HAS MADE ATTEMPTS TO FUCK THIS UP....AND BEING THE WIFE THAT I AM...I HAVE TO MAKE HIM UNDERSTAND...SHIT..WE COULD BE HOMELESS...AND MY SON DOES NOT DESERVE THIS..SO ME..I BITCH ABOUT THIS...BUT REALLY WHAT MAKES ME REALLY PISSED.................IS

OK HE HAD A HEART ATTACK IN JAN.2007 LOST THE JOB...11/2007... SO HES ON MEDS...AND HES DOING PRETTY GOOD THERE...BUT...ITS HOW HE IS NOT TAKING CARE OF HIMSELF...AND I BITCH ON THIS ORDEAL...SO...WE BARELY KEEP FOOD IN THE HOUSE...WE HAVE NO MONEY...I PAY THE BILLS...AND HE WORKS...MY SON IS IN HIGH SCHOOL..AND IM A NANNY GETTING PAID UNDER THE TABLE...SO I GET THE BILLS PAID..AND I CANT KEEP FOOD IN THE HOUSE....

I WANT A CUP OF COFFEE...NO CREAMER....WHAT IM ABOUT TO SAY IS...IM TIRED OF THIS SHIT.........IVE BEEN GETTING THE FANCY CREAMERS....LIKE VANILLA/ OR FRENCH...OR CARMEL...TO PUT IN THE COFFEE THAT WAY I DONT USE THE SUGAR...THIS DAMN MAN DRINKS IT STRAIGHT RIGHT OUT OF THE DAMN CONTANINER..I MEAN EWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.....WHEN THERE IS NO MILK IN THE HOUSE...HE HITS THE CREAMER... THE MAYO....EATS IT LIKE NOTHING...I CAN HAVE NO MEAT IN THE HOUSE AND THIS BITCH HAS A MAYO SANDWHICH...FOR ALL U PEPS OUT THERE..A CHOKE SANWICH...(LOL)....I DONT BUY THE MAYO AT TIMES...I HAVE TO HIDE IT IN THE REFRIG.........DOES THE SUGAR LIKE THIS...ANYTHING I BUY HE HAS TO EAT...I CAN BUY FOOD ON FRIDAY FOR THE NEXT COUPLE OF WKS...AND ITS GONE IN TWO DAY FROM THAT FRIDAY....AND SOMETIMES I DONT BUY FOOD BECUZ OF THIS....YES I HAVE MAC/CHEESE...RICE..SPAGETTHIS...(CANT SPELL EITHER)..ANYHOO....CAN VEGTABLES..LIVING ON NOTHING HERE...I STARTED MY DIET 2MONTHS AGO..IM DOING STRAIGHT BABY FOOD...LOST 10LBS...NOW...HE DRINKS WATER...ALL THE TIME....WORKS AND SWEATS..BUT HE DOESNT LOSE WEIGHT...HE IS LIKE 40LBS OVER WEIGHT WHICH IS NOT BAD...ME WIFEY..IS OVER 90LBS OVERWEIGHT OK..........SO IM DOING SOMETHING ABOUT..IT..BUT I CAN GET ALL OVER HIM...AND TELL HIM DONT TOUCH MY MILK OR MY CREAMER..OR THE TUNA..OR THE MAYO..OR JUICE...OR THE  WHATEVAS...EVERY TIME I PUT FOOD IN THIS HOUSE...HE DOENST LISTEN.....I STILL HAVE A GROWING BOY TO FEED...I THINK MY HUBSAND FORGOT WE HAVE A CHILD TO RAISE...SURE TWO MORE YEARS IM DONE WITH  MY DUTIES AS A PARENT...BUT DAMN...WHY DO WOMEN THINK OF THESE THINGS...AND THE DAMN MAN...DONT GIVE A FUCK...WELL I DONT GIVE A FUCK...I JUST WONT BUY FOOD ANYMORE....SO ....

HIS JOB AND FOOD IS MY FUCKIN PROBLEM AND HE IS ACTING FUNNY LATELY WHEN IT COMES TO DO SOMEHTING FOR ME OR HIS KID...HE IS ALL OF A SUDDEN SICK...OR I DONT FEEL GOOD....GIVE ME A BREAK,....MAN/A/PAUSE HERE.....AND HE REACHING 60 BY NEXT YEAR...AND DONT LET ME BITCH ABOUT HIM TAKING HIS MEDS...I HAD TO TAKE THAT OVER TOO....HE EATS THEM...I HAD TO PUT A STOP TO THAT AT LEAST 2 YRS AGO....I HAVE TO HAVE A PILL BOX FOR THAT...IM TIRED OF TAKING CARE OF A CHILD....WHO IS 59YRS OLD...SHIT WHEN CAN I START BEING A CHILD AGAIN....OH WAIT...I DO WHAT THE FUCK I WANT....U SLIPPING SWEETS...........LOL..........................

DAMN.....

JUST LOVE THE BITCH THAT COMES OUT OF ME....HIT MY LINK TO MY DAUGHTERS PAGE...http://sweets59.blogspot.com.......MAMA GOING OFF AS I WAS MEANT TO BE....THINK I WILL TWIT THIS TODAY...........

wow..........last night was..............

was a good night...be called me...i had left a message earlier in the night...so we had a good hour on the phone...i just had to have that moment to talk about im going thru...and what i will do for him...when that times happens...i really do love him...i told him...last night..i was in love with him...when i worked with him...at burger king...in the late 1970's..so these adult phone convos...is what i need just now....GET OVER IT...READERS...if u are wondering...i still love my hubby...but....be makes me smile...thats what i need...gee us im going to hell......WHATEVA...........im sweets....i do what the fqck i want..................LOL.........

sweet be.............

wanted some .coms...........so i gave some out....................ok.........i can do that.....and i gave be a encouragement letter and a chuckle to go along with it............love u be.............always bon bon....

i lost 10 lbs..........

i lost 10 lbs...and yesterday...i bought me a spanx body shaper...at lane byrants....a small one at that...to start controlling my body...to the shape i want it...makes me look smaller....30 years ago..i did that gurdle thingy....and i lost weight after having jasmine...so i figure...i will try that again...and bought the body shaper....gee us...i let 20 plus years without losing the weight....after having my sons... i owe myself and my sons...to look like a skinner mommy............so...here i go here i go....i guess i will wear my dresses now....since its a chore to use the bathroom....lol............the art of taking care of your figure......lol..............im out .........later............sweets checking out...............

misc..stuff

well im really love being a nanny.....since the girls are out for school....we done a few things...like....making homemade bird house....doing little arts and crafts thingys.....sometimes...the oldest girl will make her bed...the little one helps me in the bathroom....and i showed them how to mop the floors....but today...the little one who is four...just her and i we did cupcakes.....love it.....she did so good....we made them green/blue...sprinkled sprinkles in them....and going to frost them in a minute....pics up in min.....her older sister who is six is at sewing camp....during the morning hours...the baby....she is the sweetest boo boo in the world....yesterday i felt the first tooth coming...had to text her mommy...of the news......so im loving my nanny job....its the best...im glad i left the church program...the fax ness of  people are unreal....and waited and struggle for four months to find this nanny position....care.com...if  u looking for a nanny in your area....well im sweets and im out.....later.............

daydreaming...........

i could be..........laughing...talking bs about everything and anything....but i like it....i want it....im going after it...im going to get it............in time.........a cruise is in the making.....